In the dessert, you can’t remember your name

Having mid-terms starting tomorrow. I’ve covered two subjects already. But that’s just reading it and not understanding it. I hope doing mind-map would help me.

In college, we learned that AC Nielsen keep tabs on circulation and ratings for television and radio. And just last week, I was under a survey which was conducted by the Nielsen company. It was really interesting. If I’m not mistaken the surveys on the interaction of certain age group and the digital media. At first they gave me a diary which I had to fill in, then a in-dept interview/discussion. It was a good experience.

I thought to myself if I was an interesting survey subject perhaps I could land some kind of opportunity with them? Sounded like high hopes but guess what?

I got it.

More like the interviewer came to know that I edit vidoes and stuff and asked me at the end of the session that maybe he could use my skills. Saying “I can’t afford someone professional. But I suppose we can afford each other.” I don’t mind if I just have to edit boring videos of interviews but at least that will give me experience and maybe a form of recognition. Hopefully this will lead me to greater things. It may not be the way I would want to start off but thanks God.

On another note, I freaking just realize we have so many assignments to do. Social Psychology, Econs, ECS3 and Moral Education all have written assignments all of which must consists 1000 – 2500 words. Argh..This semester is so not cool.

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I’m planning to start visual art/fashion photos. Or if anyone needs to be photograph for any sorta reason. I need MODELS. anyone will do so long as you got nice clothes, can give some poses and willing to be experimented on. haha

Those interested can just leave a comment

Sick

Was sick for almost the whole of this week. I suppose it was due to over exhaustion. Doodoo got sick too cos infected her and WW got sick also and that I think is because he had to bring both me and doodoo to the clinic. Perhaps got infected from hanging out with too long. haha. Anyway thanks WW. Owe you one

On the road of recovery now. Fever and headache’s gone but the dry cough turned into sore throat. Apparently so many from our class and I think from the college overall fell sick too. Make sure you guys take care ourselves. DRINK LOTSA WATER, TAKE VITAMINS AND REST.

Speaking of sick, I was preparing lunch few days ago and have wanted to try the ready-to-serve Palak Paneer I bought (I’m a fan of Indian food). Palak Paneer’s cottage cheese in spinach sauce. I use to eat them at a thandoori restaurant back in Sarawak. The sauce’s nice and creamy because if I’m not mistaken they used yoghurt. Anyway back to the palak paneer i bought, here’s a picture of it.

ain’t it appetizing?

mm-mmhmm…

Now tell me how does that look like to you? I swear it looks like diarrhoea. And it really tastes like shit. Moral of the story don’t believe what you see.

I wasted rm5.

yuck.

Sinfully, sweet

brownies from her heart and crush magnum ice cream

abortion./haemorrhage

caught in between

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taximan tries to con me and he’s not using the meter.

“just this one time,

I promise when I see you again,

I’ll charge you the normal rate.”

“why should I pay so expensive?”

“traffic jam and because I have to make a big turn back to see my sick Grandma/Aunt”

“then what about the other taxi drivers who’re in the same situation as you or worst, but charges me the same?”

silence.

“I promise you,

if I ever see you again,

I’ll charge you the same.”

I have no idea how many times he came out with that excuse every I challenge him.

I won’t bother to elaborate the whole story.

But my point is: “what are the chances of that? and would  you still remember me?”

fate?

* so much to do: assignments, readings, reviews, tutorials, research.

I smell you, here.

Semester break’s over and Sem 3 has just begun. First class was Principles of Economics and coincidentally the lecturer and I share the same name. For DooDoo even her driving instructor’s name is same as mine. I’ve known one guy who shared the same name as me until I came here. I’ve always thought people with my name aren’t many. I guess not.

Class was good and surprisingly it piqued my interest. I hope my interest in Econs will not be ephemeral.

I’m so broke now. I need to move out soon and find a place near my college with cab fare starting price at rm3 going in effect by the the 1st of August. So far I’ve gotten confirmation from a lady the student services’s reception that there will be shuttle services from the sunway area to the new campus. That’s good enough for me to get a place at Mentari. The place looks kinda shitty but I’ve manage to find some units for rent online that actually looks decent enough. Hopefully I’ll be able to move out within August.

I’ve managed to get a hold of Incubus’s new album “Monuments and Melodies”. For some reason I find their songs a bit different and more mainstream but nonetheless still retaining their style. I’ve been listening to Rachael Yamagata.  I find her music calming and soothing with her subtle ‘growls’ to accentuate parts of her song. Actually she reminds me of Portishead. Another band I would like to introduce is Run The Red Light from Canada. My favourite piece from them is ‘In Too Far’.

There’s a lot I’ll like to blog about like my dear KL friends visit to Sarawak etc etc..So I’ll leave that for my next post.

Chocolate Banana Cake as Bed

Sorry for not updating my blog. It’s been a while since I last blogged. The last two weeks were cramped with assignments. I wanted to declare blog hiatus but as usual I’m quite lazy to do anything. But here I am now writing this post.

It’s been a tiring two weeks; two video presentations and a class presentation which include a written assignment. Despite that, it wasn’t just work but having great company kept me sane(maybe the rest might think otherwise) if not surely light and happy. During times of stress or boredom, you can really get to see people coming out of their shells are act…retarded. But that’s cool. It’s nice. The 3 made a train by holding onto each other’s chairs and started dragging themselves around in the room that’s under camera surveillance. I wonder what the people in charge were thinking.

Results for MMH video presentation are tomorrow. Can’t wait for it. Also, our lecturer updated us with instructions for our second assignment, themed “My Malaysia”. So I told WW my idea for the opening of the video which has something to do with heights. Both of us are afraid of heights and well, his hands was became all sweaty from the idea. This is exciting. Maybe I’ll shit myself on that day. Scream for your soul.

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Mr. Applehead

I’m thinking of home.

I’m excited about the trip back home in July. W and JR and B’s coming over. I can’t wait to show them around and share my home and culture with them. It’s gonna be a blast.

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Bday dinner at Frangipani

Pan roasted porcini powder dusted Hokkaido scallop with half
cooked potato sliced, seared porcini mushrooms and white
gazpacho vinaigrette

Warm tea smoked salmon with confit potatoes, crème fraîche and
salmon roe

Super dark chocolate and pistachio terrine with passion fruit
mascarpone custard and forest berry coulis

19, nineteen, 19

I thank God, for leading me to where I am now. For every breath I take. For the love, favour and blessings.

19, nineteen, 19

So much has happened in the past few months and life has definitely been interesting. Life’s a journey as they say and I’m definitely looking forward to it, bad or good.

Apple Milk?

I just came back from my hometown and it did not feel like a holiday because I was using every brain cell in my head to figure out a topic to do for my assignment which was due yesterday. I only decided the topic and only started working on it last Friday. I definitely suffered the consequences of doing last minute work; pulling an all nighter, culturing my eye bags, and feeling extremely weary both mentally and physically.

Though I spent most of my days in my hometown at home, in my room, glued to my laptop trying to study and do my assignment (plus the weather was scorching hot like KL). And of all days to rain, it rained the day I was leaving to KL But at that moment, I realized how much I missed the rain, the empty roads at midnight; how nice it is to drive or take a stroll. I miss and love the laid back and easy going vibe, groove when I’m home unlike in KL, where everything’s fast-paced and hectic. Though Kuching is seeming to look it’s heading that road too..

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Three papers down, one more to go. I wish MS exam was this week instead of next week, so I can just  get everything over and done with. I hope I’ll fare well for this mid-term. I have to say I didn’t put much effort in studying.

I wish the college informed us properly about the change in dates for our finals. I’ve booked tickets according to the academic calender back to Kuching on in July only to find out that we have our finals that week. Our holidays following the academic calender says our holidays is from the 6th till the 20th something of July and that our finals is on the 1-3 July. The course outline for IMC and ECS2 stated that our finals would be from the 6-10 of July, while for MS it’s 13-17 July. So which one is it? I checked with programme office and they confirmed that 6-7 July is our study leave and 8-10 July is our finals. The following would be a 1 week break. My booked flight is on the 8th July. Just yesterday I learned from my MS lecturer that the finals, well for MS is on the 1-3 July. Aren’t finals for all our subjects supposed to be during the same period? So which one is it? It’s getting annoying. To make matters worse, I most likely can’t change the booking date nor get a refund as the package I got does not entitle me to enjoy those benefits which I would desperately need if the college can’t do anything about it. Claim a refund from the college? Tough luck, but I’ll try. Though they’ll most likely blame me for not double checking. Well, they should inform us students, if there were changes rather than leaving us in the dark. Hell, they’ll probably say something like, “This is college, son. Don’t expect to be spoon-fed all the time. Thank God, the flight ticket wasn’t that expensive. Worst case scenario. Ditch that ticket, get a new one. Waste of money? Definitely. What to do? Shit happens.

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credits to MING

Oxygenate/?

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Across

Leaving to Sarawak tomorrow afternoon for a short holiday break or more like a study break since my mid-term exams will be in two week’s time and I have an assignment to be submitted once the holiday is over. Initially I wasn’t suppose to go back for this month’s break because the break’s only one week and it would be more convenient for me to do my assignments and projects here. My sister was the one who suggested me to go back to take my  mind off things and see the rest of my family. I wasn’t so keen on it at first because I didn’t want to burden my parents with the flight expenses. But at the same time, I didn’t really mind going back at all.

Anyways, I’ll blog more when I get back cause now, I’m just too  knackered.

p.s I’ll miss you, B.

Floating On Raging Seas

Firstly I’ll like to apologize those who’ve been reading my blog which was on hiatus. I apologize for not informing or updating the blog for the of matter of fact.

I guess I’ve found the reason why I was not into blogging. Every time I don’t blog for awhile and when I do blog, I feel I have to blog about everything that has been going on during my lapse. And because of that compulsion,  the thought of typing a lot and uploading pics and etc etc..is just taxing.

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So many things has happen in the last two weeks. My life seems to have unexpected things occurring. Things I would have never even imagine. 3 years back, after an incident which could have cost me my life, I wondered to myself, “If my life now has seen and experience many incidents and events, I wonder how would it be like in the future.” Would more things take place in my life or will it just be the same? Deep in my heart, I wish I never ask that question nor would I want to probe for an answer. But then again it seemed like I can’t help but to ask that question yet again.

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I broke my ring. I broke two hairbands. I broke my spectacles.

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Our lecturer gave us an assignment which is to make a video on one of the topics she gave. My group picked “Malayan Movies in The 50’s – 70’s” and I’m proud to say that we did quite well and I was happy with it. I’m starting to love this course more as I’m getting the confidence in pursuing my dream. The assignments and projects open sthe door for me to polish and work on my abilities.

Last Thursday there were few but interesting things that happened, some drama which I think was unnecessary and WW who just to drive, had his poor car broke down due overheating. We were very lucky that when his car broke down we were near a bus stop and there was mechanic shops nearby. An interesting day it was.

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I’ve always wanted to watch 7 pounds starring Will Smith and I finally had the chance to watch it just now. In the middle of the movie it was sort of boring  but I guess it was because of predictability after hearing the spoiler. But I have to say it was a good movie and SAD.

I decided to join the my college’s talent show event and the audition is this coming Thursday and I’ve not decided on what song to perform. ticktockticktock..

I’ll try to upload and update this post. At the moment, I’m feeling lazy to blog any further.

On a side note, I enjoy taking the LRT..cheap..and…fun?

Just use the sunlight it you could be your guide

Finally got my macbook back after waiting a week. The screen had a factory defect and I sent it for a replacement since it’s still under warranty last Sunday and they only started the repair last friday. Anyway it’s good to have it back again. Feels kinda weird now that the problem’s gone. I’ve been accustomed to the bugging pixels on the screen everytime I use the laptop but of course which aren’t there anymore.

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Sunburst was effing great. The main performers in the line-up was Korn, N.E.R.D and Nidji. I wish Incubus came or if I could turn back time, attend Sunburt 08′ which featured Incubus in the line up. Nidji, N.E.R.D was superb. Had to bail on out Korn because I was the verge of passing out. But nonetheless their performance was good too (never did joined the crowd again). Now I know what they mean when they say everything turns black when you’re gonna passed out. The lights were shining directly at me but instead of being super bright it looked dim..and got dimmer..and dimmer..and…and got out of the crowd in time. Badd experience. On the good side, I didn’t had to go through moshing which my sister did. She got punched by some dude or something like that when the moshing began(she gave that person a running elbow). Sounds great though just body slamming someone or hitting someone randomly. Good when you’re having a bad day and just need some poor fella or some person who’s going through the same thing as you are to release on too.

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The second semester has finally begun officially today though today there will be no class. I love this second semester because there’s only 3 classes a week. I wish they had classes from monday to wednesday so we can have free time from thursday to sunday straight instead of having classes on monday, tuesday and thursday. The timetable’s posted up was annoying me and screwing up my mind. Why in the world was there so many versions of the timetable which are contracdicting each other?? stress..

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Anyway..here’s a new vid some of you out there have been asking. It’s on the song Wish me and my friend Josh composed last year. I’m trying to post up more videos on the net but it’s kinda tedious to record yourself performing. Plus, recording yourself performing makes you EXTRA self conscious and I’ll have to keep on stopping halfway and make a new recording. Enough said, enjoy the video and pls do leave your comments. Thank you

Here’s the link

‘S wonderful, ‘S marvellous

Home sweet home.

I miss the air. I miss the food. I miss driving and the feel of driving a manual car; stepping on the clutch and shifting gear.

But this “miss” feels superficial. I feel like I miss. It doesn’t really feel like it’s from the heart. Like my heart’s numbed to feel it. Weird..

I’ve been catching up with some of my good pals and why do I just hear sad stories? Last night’s outing was suppose to be filled with laughter and fun but instead it was serious, wistful..sad.

Perhaps that’s the reason why I don’t really “miss” as I should. Maybe I’m just wearied with all that, I want to be happy. I want to hear happy stories. I’m sick of the gloom grey clouds I’m under, here. I hope these clouds will go away, and let the sun shine it’s light, basking me and colouring me with it’s warmth and golden hue.

At least over the other side, I feel happier; I can forget. At least the very least, I’m not under clouds like these. Too depressing.

So many things to do yet so yet it feels like there’s nothing to do. 12 days is not long and before I know it, I’ll be cramped up in a seat, chewing on blueberry gum to equalize the pressure in my ears for a two and a half hour flight to see the sun, bask in it’s warmth and be elated, joyous.

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Have a break, have a kolomee.

Note:

You aren’t here and I miss you so dearly,
but when I close my eyes, there you are,
Face in my hands, eyes full of love,
You are as I see you as you are,
In my eyes, so precious,
Words stringed with this feeling so indescribable,
I find so hard to speak,
Is this what singers have always sing about?
What poets and writers wrote about?
What great man of arts drew and visualize?

When can I ever or even show you how much
it beats fervently for you?